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Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Today was supposed to be a awesome and good day but things just have to come interrupt my mood. Yea, regarding you again. Peh Yu Yuan, it was all good day expect for the part where you made me cried again this afternoon. For your info, i'm really hurt by the way you treat me. I know you won't be able to see this but do you know that from those way where you don't mean to hurt me, actually hurt me the most? Like you said to me on Sunday night. You're my bf, you're not my dog. Yea, i know that. But have you treat me like your gf? Yes, maybe you think you did. But do you know that handling girls is like handling a fragile glass? Girls are the most fragile things on earth, yet some guys can't handle them right. You might not mean it but you're just not handling them well enough.
Back to today incident that made me felt that today outing was a bad ending. Yea, everything was going well today. In the morning, met you at woodlands and off we go to JB. We had some walk around and didn't know what to eat so we decided to eat MacDonald instead. After that, walked a little and went back to Singapore. Went over to your place till evening and off to Khatib to eat, then back to Northpoint and decided to catch a movie. Watched '21 and over', quite a funny show. After show ended, you sent me to the interchange to catch the last bus. Seating at the reeling, you asked me about SOH celebration. There goes my mind about you joining the JIVE committee. Yes, you did asked me whether should you join. My heart says NO but my mouth said 'Up to you'. Which gf would want their bf to join into another committee and make themselves even busy when he himself doesn't have must time for his gf? You might not feel that way but can't you see whenever you talk about JIVE committee, i wouldn't be interested to talk about it? Since you think that JIVE needs you then go ahead.
I doesn't want to stop my bf from doing things that he wants to do. I just hope that he would have time for me and not put JIVE in front of me if he would even agree to join in. I would say that 95% of the chance that he would be in. Therefore, i'm still hoping that 5% of the chance you won't go in. Maybe these are the reason why i feel insecure? You do not know that the things you do and say might cause me to be insecure and even build up my fearfulness. You only thinks that problem lies with me, didn't you heard that things works with both things? If you don't do this kind of things for me to feel insecure, do you even think that i would feel this way? If someone would come shower me with love and care, i would be very grateful and not think so much because from the person action i can see through his intentions. All girls want to feel protected and secure under their men arms, so do i.
I'm just gonna let things be this way and not think too much for the time being. Like you said, things are actually very simple but i think and put it into a very complex way. I shall listen to you, let's wait and see how things would go. Until that day, when someone that is more suitable of taking care of my heart and knowing what i really want then maybe i would tell you that you ain't the one that i needed. This might sound bad, but from the person that i know of yours. You would want to change for me, yet you would want me to change for you. But, i'm gonna say sorry to you, my world doesn't revolve around you since the day i was born neither is today and forever will it be. I have my own life to live too and if you can't handle me at worst, you definitely don't deserve me when i'm at my best.
So, i would say. Thank you for the things that you says to me or do to me. You do treat me your gf but you're just isn't that kind of bf i'm looking for. Sorry, until the day i find someone that i can pass my heart to, i'm gonna let you handle it first before i go. I know this is selfish, but who on earth isn't selfish?
Thank you baby Peh for today! It just add into another part of our memories. :)
"When someone comes into your life, god sent them for a reason, either to learn from them or to be with them till the end."
♥
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Today was supposed to be a awesome and good day but things just have to come interrupt my mood. Yea, regarding you again. Peh Yu Yuan, it was all good day expect for the part where you made me cried again this afternoon. For your info, i'm really hurt by the way you treat me. I know you won't be able to see this but do you know that from those way where you don't mean to hurt me, actually hurt me the most? Like you said to me on Sunday night. You're my bf, you're not my dog. Yea, i know that. But have you treat me like your gf? Yes, maybe you think you did. But do you know that handling girls is like handling a fragile glass? Girls are the most fragile things on earth, yet some guys can't handle them right. You might not mean it but you're just not handling them well enough.
Back to today incident that made me felt that today outing was a bad ending. Yea, everything was going well today. In the morning, met you at woodlands and off we go to JB. We had some walk around and didn't know what to eat so we decided to eat MacDonald instead. After that, walked a little and went back to Singapore. Went over to your place till evening and off to Khatib to eat, then back to Northpoint and decided to catch a movie. Watched '21 and over', quite a funny show. After show ended, you sent me to the interchange to catch the last bus. Seating at the reeling, you asked me about SOH celebration. There goes my mind about you joining the JIVE committee. Yes, you did asked me whether should you join. My heart says NO but my mouth said 'Up to you'. Which gf would want their bf to join into another committee and make themselves even busy when he himself doesn't have must time for his gf? You might not feel that way but can't you see whenever you talk about JIVE committee, i wouldn't be interested to talk about it? Since you think that JIVE needs you then go ahead.
I doesn't want to stop my bf from doing things that he wants to do. I just hope that he would have time for me and not put JIVE in front of me if he would even agree to join in. I would say that 95% of the chance that he would be in. Therefore, i'm still hoping that 5% of the chance you won't go in. Maybe these are the reason why i feel insecure? You do not know that the things you do and say might cause me to be insecure and even build up my fearfulness. You only thinks that problem lies with me, didn't you heard that things works with both things? If you don't do this kind of things for me to feel insecure, do you even think that i would feel this way? If someone would come shower me with love and care, i would be very grateful and not think so much because from the person action i can see through his intentions. All girls want to feel protected and secure under their men arms, so do i.
I'm just gonna let things be this way and not think too much for the time being. Like you said, things are actually very simple but i think and put it into a very complex way. I shall listen to you, let's wait and see how things would go. Until that day, when someone that is more suitable of taking care of my heart and knowing what i really want then maybe i would tell you that you ain't the one that i needed. This might sound bad, but from the person that i know of yours. You would want to change for me, yet you would want me to change for you. But, i'm gonna say sorry to you, my world doesn't revolve around you since the day i was born neither is today and forever will it be. I have my own life to live too and if you can't handle me at worst, you definitely don't deserve me when i'm at my best.
So, i would say. Thank you for the things that you says to me or do to me. You do treat me your gf but you're just isn't that kind of bf i'm looking for. Sorry, until the day i find someone that i can pass my heart to, i'm gonna let you handle it first before i go. I know this is selfish, but who on earth isn't selfish?
Thank you baby Peh for today! It just add into another part of our memories. :)
"When someone comes into your life, god sent them for a reason, either to learn from them or to be with them till the end."
